- 103 pips
- 19%

I'm finally back home after six weeks of fun at the seaside. I rushed into trading without much thinking. Not good result followed. I kind of liked not posting any blog posts, so this week I didn't post daily results. Maybe I will continue doing it like this with weekly installments. Main reason is that I don't want to talk about trading that much on a daily basis. Before I would wash up all my thinking after trading day in blog posts. Now I want those impressions to brew inside of me for a change. I definitely want to continue blogging and documenting my trades, so I'm not on verge of stopping.

What can I say about past week? I lost a lot trading with double size. Mostly being impatient and not waiting for things to materialize but "wanting them". Really good day was Wednesday where I did great in after the news trading and fast moving market. That day simply suited me and on other days I foolishly pressed. Many bad trades with 4x size could be a lot smaller losers if I didn't keep them open so long without real reasons.

Now I'm in survival mode. It's good, now I can't take trades because I can't afford more of the losses. So only hpt.
Did I need this? Probably not, but it was always like this before so why should something change just because I was away for some time.

You can see charts from this week's trades in post below.

23. -8 pips



24. +20 pips




25. +46 pips



26. -104 pips




27. -70 pips

I'm still enjoying my vacation but have some spare time today to catch up on reading blogs because it's windy day.

So I read on some poker blog about problem with tilting. In poker people are considering being on tilt as a normal occurrence that is happening from time to time. They even can notice that they are on borderline to go on tilt and quit before they do some damage.
Wikipedia defines term as: "Tilt is a poker term for a state of mental confusion or frustration in which a player adopts a less than optimal strategy, usually resulting in the player becoming over-aggressive."
It's something common and can be expected. To deal with it first comes prevention. Simply avoiding situations where you are putting yourself in a position where it can easily happen. When on tilt the most important thing is to recognize it and acknowledge it. Then you have a chance to walk away.
Watching poker shows with professionals playing we can see that they are not totally immune to tilt and that it's common for them also. So simply there is no escaping to being on tilt this way or another. Only solution is to adapt to it and minimize negative effects.

This bring us to trading. I always thought that I have unacceptable characteristic for successful trading with my averaging habit. That I'll simply need to find a way to cast out that habit completely if I want to progress. But now I think different. It's probable if I continue to trade for rest of my life that averaging bug will be with me in one form or another whole time. I can adjust, minimize it but shouldn't worry to much about it like I was. It's just me being on tilt. Everyone have their own way for tilt. Black put in tens of trades in a span of one hour and 20 pips range. RCM holds big losing trades over few days as do FXpropTrader.
I just average down position after position until I use up all margin and hold several hundred pips loss because I didn't want to close -15 pips loss. Just recently DNTRader had -1000 pips day that way.
So what I'm saying tilt is fact of life in poker and obviously in trading too. It is necessary to minimize the damage with prevention of situation that can lead us to it. Also, easier said then done, we can acknowledge that we are on tilt when we recognize ourselves in that situation and pull out the plug to stop the bleeding. It is not necessary to self-pity and think that it's only me who have that awful problem that is going to ruin me. Tilt is here and it's here to stay. We can accept it as a fact and deal accordingly or bang our head on the wall.

Today I found out while I was in this short trade that I'm tired and don't have desire to trade. Too bad because later market started to move nicely up. I feel good when I'm able to pass on trading if I'm not 100% for it.
My vacation time is nearing, some time next week. I have less time for trading in following days. When vacation starts my trading and blogging will probably be sporadic if any. I always have long summer vacation and I'm looking forward to it, best time of the year for me.

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