From +30 to -150

I'm not mad or angry at myself, I just couldn't help it. I have understanding for myself because I know how I operate. It's better when I can prevent this on time, but this time I didn't. It would be beautiful if I cut loss around 860 but I sometimes stuck and keep all of position on. Late attempts to go long with bigger size are understandable also.
I can say that problem is in letting go my discipline path in last few days, or lack of satisfaction with great profit of +30. I don't want to speculate, it's all just one big mess. Where I try to achieve castles in the sky with trading. There's also question would I trade at all that I don't have that questionable motivation.

-151 half size pips